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Story ’bout a Girl [part II]

Jail time is lifetime, baby… Lifetime: Television for Women.

I will testify, to this day, in a court of law [if aforementioned thing were ever necessary]… that the truly breaking part of being incarcerated in a women’s prison is the constant loop of Lifetime MOW’s. Young Amish chicks getting pregnant, giving birth and disposing of the body, Mariska Hargitay [Law & Order: SVU] is this modern [mid-nineties] lawyer that has to live in Amish country to solve the case. With nary a pinch of electricity and therefore, no computer access beyond what her laptop battery will provide!!; Kirstie Alley’s as an aging, has-been, overweight writer in Hollywood that ‘hires’ her hot nephew to pretend that he wrote her present scripts and go into studios to pitch them. He becomes the hottest young writer in Hollywood, chaos ensues and “a valuable lesson is learned by all”; & a classically early-to-mid-nineties Candice Cameron is in high school finally gets the guts to go up to the “most popular guy wrestler in school”, an early-to-mid- nineties Fred Savage [haha!!] only to find out that he is a possessive and abusive motherfucker [haha, again]…. He ends up killing her. With a special cameo appearance from the “The Mamas & the Papas” own, Michelle Phillips as Candice Cameron’s mother; by then probably in her 50’s but still hot. And all this time, a  meter on the lower left-hand side of the screen ticking down the hours, minutes, seconds to THE PREMEIRE OF THE LIFETIME ORIGINAL SERIES… ARMY WIVES!!! Which ironically, we have a client in.

Again, I do not know if I’m tired. But after an unknown amount of time in the cold cold holding cell, I decide that where ever I am directed, I will sleep… until I am freed [a long nap; a light coma… if you sleep, whatever happens around you… doesn’t, really. Not for you.] You know, this prison thing is a mild inconvenience… not so much harshing-my-gig or whatever… just that I decide that I would sleep. It is just a matter of time before I am no longer here… let loose to resume my partially truncated existence, at this point, so… why not plan to wake to consciousness toward the very end of the aforementioned ‘matter of time’?

“…shouldn’t be longer than a couple of hours”, the guard assures me.

okay. everything is good. genuine smiles. a bit of fatigue. I will sleep. whenever you put me where ever you will put me.


People that work for the government, in public facilities [ie DMV, prison, healthcare clinics] never know what they are talking about. But naive, new-to-this-whole-jail-thing, me, I do not know this just yet. So, by this time, a couple of additional people are put into the holding cell, including a chick in what seems to be a prom dress-like apparatus who is a completely entitled drunk bitch that belittles the guards. The guards tell us that this is the only opportunity for us to make local calls for free. As my phone sits snuggly in my apartment; the only local numbers I have memorized are the mobile #’s of the producers that I work for & the office.

…not so good.

Most of the people I know, myself included, that live out here have some sort of out-of-state number. This is not free. And “Boy J”, my sort of friend that has vowed to protect me in any situation [without my asking or real wanting], ironically lives pretty close… in Glendale [where ever… I mean, the valley, who knows?] … but I do not know his number off-hand.

I should be released in maybe seven hours, at the most. Not very long. It’s cool.

At this point, they release this motley crew from the holding cell [goodbye cold, cold air!]. Harmless-enough-seeming prison guard #1 lines us up haphazardly. We walk in line down the hall and around corners. We walk through doors. She instructs us to hold the doors open for those behind us. The prom-queen continues to belittle and complain. I acknowledge though don’t mind.

That’s the thing about meth. I am me. Comfortable and fine. Feelin’ fine… feelin’ grooooovy. I judge not the prom-queen nor the guard. And it’s not euphoria… it’s been half a day since I’ve done any meth. But that doesn’t seem to matter either, somehow.

As motley as this crew is… with our prom-dresses and sweat-shirts and cool-ass sea-foam-green Diesel, off-the-shoulder shirt dresses with leggings and ballet flats… we, or I, realize that it’s not so motley and much more CW-Kindergarten-drunken-pretty-girl bullshit… that is, when our group meets another group. Side-swiped with forced integration.

Strange. I’d bet the pot none of us wants to be here, but the little time we’ve shared bonds us into a team of sorts.

Now, there are new people… weird people. Mix and mix and mix. Older, more disheveled, strange… sad… and categorically not ‘us’. But only in shade. I doubt any of us thinks that far into it… before time hurls us into an infinately-more categorical ‘not-you’ territory.


Another guard appears with the ‘other’ prisoners. This now, explosively motley crew is separated into two groups. FELONY. MISDEMEANOR. Somehow, I am honest [maybe that’s the invincibility behind meth,too…] I move to the felony line. Harmless-enough-seeming prison guard #1, the guard that told me that I would be released in a few short hours, tells me to go back to the other [misdemeanor] line. I feel better, though, probably, I know better. But I’ve never been in jail before… these people are guards… they know of what they speak.

In the misdemeanor line, I stand.

And I don’t know why…. And maybe this is the ultimate thing about meth…. I say something about, “Um I think I’m charged with a felony?”…. Volunterily. I just say it.

WTF? This wasn’t impulsive. I do not feel guilt. This is nothing like these things. This doesn’t even scratch this sort of surface. Because it’s all surface somehow. It’s the truth. So, I just say it. And I’m fine with saying it. I don’t take it back; I don’t cower or hide. But neither do I scream.

Guard #2 asks me for my pink slip. I slide my hand into the haphazard front pocket of my shirt-dress, pull out a quarter-fold carbon-copy pink leaf and hand it to her. She looks at it… then me… then it… then Harmless-enough-seeming prison guard #1…

Finally: “well, look at that.” She looks at me again. “She right” she says in her high-level Ebonics.


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